im scared

im not being a baby,
im just being cautious, cuz im scared.
i dont like the feeling of not knowing
whats gonna happen next. i dont like the
incertainty. i but i cant rush things.
i have to let things flow and fall into place.
shit will happen when it happens.
but the longer we're not together the more
i think we're not gonna be together again.
everyday you're not with me you're with
someone else.
everday you're not mine, someone is liable
to take you.
everyday you love me less and less
while the time apart is making me love you more and more.
im scared that we're not on the same page.
im scared that im not the girl you think
about before you go to bed and when you wake up.
im scared that u dont love me like you use to
and that its all my fault.
im scared that i've done irreversible damage
and now we're through. i know im thinkin far into this
but this is the shit that goes through my mind.
the thoughts that frighten me in the middle of the day.
i know you say that i have nothing to worry about
but ive heard that song and dance before
and i just dont want to relive heartache again.
i keep backtracking the things i did and think
of i what i could've done to make things better.
like maybe i should've said i loved you more often
or told you how i felt EVERYDAY
or something!
anything.
im just fucking scared that all the dreams
i had of us wont come true.
i just fucking scared.