a cry. as in a cry out.

i posted this before but oh well, i like it.

please just know and understand
that when you need it to hold, you have my hand

you can come and tell me your fears
you can let me see your tears

and not once
not ONCE
will i dare turn my back!!
because when YOUR hurt it's happiness i lack

let me be the one you go to when shit gets hard
when your feelings are scarred
PLEASE LET DOWN YOUR GUARD!

i cant help what i cant get to
and i cant help if you keep a brick wall up against you

i know its not easy, i know that firsthand
but please, just know and understand
that i cant break down that wall you've built
at least not alone, i need your help

you've caged yourself from what i can offer
isolated your heart because you prefer
to play it safe than take a risk
for something that can turn out to be fantastic

yes! fantastic and special and real
something that you have to WANT to feel

something true and worth fighting for
someone to cherish and adore
to have, to hold and all that bullshit
something genuine, not counterfeit

I WANT TO BE that 'something' you have
I WANT TO BE the one who lasts

you want to protect yourself and that's fine
but the more you shelter YOUR heart, the more you hurt MINE

im not asking you to risk it all
but im begging you, tear down that damned wall

if not to the world, then at least to me
let ME in, let ME see
i need to know and understand
that you ARE trying as best you can

i want to feel you inside and out
i want to be assured that without a doubt
that your love for me is actual
that the feelings i have are mutual

if you dont want me near, please tell me know and now
dont be the one to kick me when im down

whenever you need me ill be here
everyday, every year
every waking moment
my love for you will NEVER be absent

when your spirit is broken
i'll be softspoken

NO MATTER WHAT i'll be here
as your lady, as your peer

i'll be the light that brightens your day
i'll be the compass that guides your way

i'll be whatever i have in my power to be for you
but first, Christopher, you have to let me through

let me in, hold me tight
say we're going to be alright
trust me
lust for me

let me in through the pride,
let me in through the feelings you hide
and, PLEASE, hold me
and when i need it, console me

let me in past your concerns
let me know that it's me you yearn
love me
make love to me

hurt me gently
whisper that you'll be here indefinitely


grab me, grip me, pull me close,
then wait long seconds before letting me go

press your body up against mine
make our hands intertwine
and when i show resistance, simply decline
because for every one "no" i really mean "yes" a billion times


i'll always be here for you to use me
but since i'm giving you my all, don't abuse me

i want to believe that you won't harm me
but the fact that you cant say how you feel alarms me


there you go. :(ish