you're alot smarter than you look

"I love you more than anything and anybody."

I wish you could see my smile on the other side of
the phone when you tell me this. You can't see it ,
but it's there.

& Thank you very much

Je amour vous mais je crains votre amour.

Je veux ton amour, et je veux ton revenge.

After long intrevals of philophobia
I've overcame it and became
familiar with eremophobia.
If you are philophobic, STAY THAT WAY.
Eremophobia is alot worst.

:(

My insanity is not an illness,
but a choice. Sanity dulls the mind,
keeps you trapped, lays out
boundaries. I like excitement.
Im not a happy girl but I most
definitely do not suffer from depression.
I have a hard exterior because
fuckheads like you dont deserve to see
the real me and the ones who do
have the ability to hurt me so they
dont see it either.
I curse but I have wonderfully wide
vocabulary and could talk shit
without profanity.
So why curse?
I lie but could honestly give a fuck less
if you knew the truth.
So why lie?
Im so full of shit if my outside
matched my inside I'd resemble a bull.
I think he's happy.
Im not. But I get somewhat satisfied
knowing that he is.
I dont know why.
I dont have half the normal feelings
and transactions that other humans have.
I dont know why.
I like it. It gives me emotional freedom
to hurt people and feel no remorse,
to break hearts and not think twice.
Yet at the same time, it handicaps me.
I dont get to experience the delights
that others do. Im not happy.
I dont know what its like to give someone
your all. But at the same time I dont know what its
like to be completely broken at anothers will.
Sometime....sometimes I wonder...
If the high people get off love,
is worth the downfall.
Maybe one day I'll find out.
But as of now I dont have a clue.
Im NOT happy.