its gotten to the point where
i dont know what to do.
im damned if i do, damned if i dont.
so ill just ride it out.
i dont want to do something ill regret,
and i dont want to fuck myself over.
so ill just like act its
like all the others.
7/30/2009
what's a lighter word for done?
ahhhhhhhh!!
that was a scream, or yell, or shout.
whatever the fuck u wanna call it.
im so fucking just over shit now.
i just cant let shit else phase me now
or get to my head.
dan, i fell off my rocker.
fuck sam.
dumbass girl. u know better.
but u were smart though.
you knew just what to do, and just when to do it.
i give you that.
and that only.
that was a scream, or yell, or shout.
whatever the fuck u wanna call it.
im so fucking just over shit now.
i just cant let shit else phase me now
or get to my head.
dan, i fell off my rocker.
fuck sam.
dumbass girl. u know better.
but u were smart though.
you knew just what to do, and just when to do it.
i give you that.
and that only.
at torrences...
so i went to torre3nces with alexa to resolve some shit
and got into it with this nigga named marquez or some shit
mar: chris your boyfriend?
sam: yea.
mar: that nigga talk alot of shit.
sam: i mean u cold say this to him
mar: ay, that nigga could get it
sam: (giggles) from you?
(he must be kidding)
mar: yeah.
sam: hahaha i mean, that was cute.
mar: tell that nigga come over here
sam: hahaha stop dying for my man. im about to blog about this
mar: y u typing in my name?
sam: i said i was about to blog, didnt i?
mar: how u no my name?
sam: u fuckin added me on myspace
mar: then delete me
sam: i never accepted you.
so me and this punk bitch are talkin
shit and then he turns the computer off on me and shit.
weeeeeeeaaaaaaaakkk.
then later apologizes so im cool.
and got into it with this nigga named marquez or some shit
mar: chris your boyfriend?
sam: yea.
mar: that nigga talk alot of shit.
sam: i mean u cold say this to him
mar: ay, that nigga could get it
sam: (giggles) from you?
(he must be kidding)
mar: yeah.
sam: hahaha i mean, that was cute.
mar: tell that nigga come over here
sam: hahaha stop dying for my man. im about to blog about this
mar: y u typing in my name?
sam: i said i was about to blog, didnt i?
mar: how u no my name?
sam: u fuckin added me on myspace
mar: then delete me
sam: i never accepted you.
so me and this punk bitch are talkin
shit and then he turns the computer off on me and shit.
weeeeeeeaaaaaaaakkk.
then later apologizes so im cool.
7/27/2009
Chris Alexa and Nosey Hoes
chris hoed me
i hoed alexa
sorry bestie
but my turnip-like father has awaken.
and the next bitch that IMs me on myspace
just because i go with chris
is gonna be severely damaged.
(except peace, cuz your friendly)
dont question my relationship.
i dont like ppl.
question him. he's nicer than me.
i hoed alexa
sorry bestie
but my turnip-like father has awaken.
and the next bitch that IMs me on myspace
just because i go with chris
is gonna be severely damaged.
(except peace, cuz your friendly)
dont question my relationship.
i dont like ppl.
question him. he's nicer than me.
7/11/2009
steven
so i get beat up in my own damn home.
fuckin bitches.
steven learned three lil boxing moves
and now thinks he can beat my ass.
so he's been stickin me ALLLL day.
and i just let it slide.
but im not forgetting.
so when i get out the shower
and put on my boxers and tee
i grab a belt and sneak up on that
black ass nigga and hit him
about 4 good times...
then he catches the belt.
and i know im in trouble now.
i dont let go though
cuz then he'll just hit the fuck outta me.
so it gets hard and harder to hold on.
and we're wrestling for a good while.
then he gets the belt.
and throws it to pharson.
but theres one under my bed
so i grab it.
hes ntop of me this ENTIRE time.
and he grabs that belt too.
and hits me with it
on my thigh
and it hurts like fuckin hell.
but im a fuckin gangsta.
and i wont give him the satisfaction
of knowing im hurt so i just
act like i aint feel it.
and then hes all like "so you're tough?"
and im like "yeah BITCH!"
so he hits me again,
and i scream like a sorry wimp.
at hte end of all this im defeated
:(
i dont like losing.
i will get him back.
i swear.
fuckin bitches.
steven learned three lil boxing moves
and now thinks he can beat my ass.
so he's been stickin me ALLLL day.
and i just let it slide.
but im not forgetting.
so when i get out the shower
and put on my boxers and tee
i grab a belt and sneak up on that
black ass nigga and hit him
about 4 good times...
then he catches the belt.
and i know im in trouble now.
i dont let go though
cuz then he'll just hit the fuck outta me.
so it gets hard and harder to hold on.
and we're wrestling for a good while.
then he gets the belt.
and throws it to pharson.
but theres one under my bed
so i grab it.
hes ntop of me this ENTIRE time.
and he grabs that belt too.
and hits me with it
on my thigh
and it hurts like fuckin hell.
but im a fuckin gangsta.
and i wont give him the satisfaction
of knowing im hurt so i just
act like i aint feel it.
and then hes all like "so you're tough?"
and im like "yeah BITCH!"
so he hits me again,
and i scream like a sorry wimp.
at hte end of all this im defeated
:(
i dont like losing.
i will get him back.
i swear.
7/07/2009
X girl
when i went to the bus station
i had the most homo moment of my life.
i will never feel that way about
a female again.
that sounds really gay.
but you didnt see her.
she wasnt perfect, not even close.
but she had this...this thing? about her.
i dont know how to explain it.
she was like 5' 5"
with jet black hair.
it was curly and barely touched
her shoulder.
she had one earring in her right ear.
it was the shape of a boombox.
the cutest lil earring ever.
the was darker than me.
with creamy skin, no blemishes, or acne.
in a way u could tell she knew she was
the shit, but she didnt have no cocky attitude and shit.
her legs were slim and arms too.
her breasts were a lil bigger than average
but fit her fine. cute lil butt.
her lips looked perfect. not too glossy like
a whore or chapped either.
her t-shirt was white with a frog on the back.
her jeans had a rip at the thigh, knee.
it looked like she ripped them herself.
she had a gazillion bracelets on her left wrist.
all of them looked homemade with thread or yarn.
and a tattoo on her neck of a rose.
and ....she was wearing the same necklace as me.
i got mine from my lil sister.
i felt kinda good knowin she had the same one.
she was reading a book and listening to some music.
she ws so uniqe. and it looked so effortless.
i was so jealous.
what? i dont know.
she dropped her book and i reached over to pick
it up for her at the same time she did.
her finger grazed my hand and i swear to god
i got goosebumps. she smiled and said thank.
i got in line.
i had the most homo moment of my life.
i will never feel that way about
a female again.
that sounds really gay.
but you didnt see her.
she wasnt perfect, not even close.
but she had this...this thing? about her.
i dont know how to explain it.
she was like 5' 5"
with jet black hair.
it was curly and barely touched
her shoulder.
she had one earring in her right ear.
it was the shape of a boombox.
the cutest lil earring ever.
the was darker than me.
with creamy skin, no blemishes, or acne.
in a way u could tell she knew she was
the shit, but she didnt have no cocky attitude and shit.
her legs were slim and arms too.
her breasts were a lil bigger than average
but fit her fine. cute lil butt.
her lips looked perfect. not too glossy like
a whore or chapped either.
her t-shirt was white with a frog on the back.
her jeans had a rip at the thigh, knee.
it looked like she ripped them herself.
she had a gazillion bracelets on her left wrist.
all of them looked homemade with thread or yarn.
and a tattoo on her neck of a rose.
and ....she was wearing the same necklace as me.
i got mine from my lil sister.
i felt kinda good knowin she had the same one.
she was reading a book and listening to some music.
she ws so uniqe. and it looked so effortless.
i was so jealous.
what? i dont know.
she dropped her book and i reached over to pick
it up for her at the same time she did.
her finger grazed my hand and i swear to god
i got goosebumps. she smiled and said thank.
i got in line.
"everytime i lust, it reminds me of us"
*screams in excitement and delight*
i ws suppose to go to job corps today.
:(
and i didnt even get to see
chris of alexa before the day i was
scheduled to leave.
so i sneak out in the middle of my
packing and go to her house.
do i notify her first?
no, cuz we're bff's and she felt me coming.
i knock on her window and she knows what to do.
its like 3 and stay until like alomst 5.
we were just talkin and shit.
and she was on the phone with this one nigga.
who had this "cute" friend.
and alexa gives me the phone while the
"cute" friend is on it. lol
sam-"hello?"
boy-"hey, whats your name?"
sam-"lucifer"
boy-"oh, that's different."
(this nigga is obviously an idiot)
sam-"yeah, i know"
boy-"so can i have your number?"
sam-"yeah, tell me when you're ready"
boy-"alright, what is it?"
sam-"666"
......silence
boy-"whats the rest?"
sam-"are you dumb?"
boy-"haha. naw, im just shy."
sam-"oh okay, well you're shy and im taken so this isnt gonna work"
(hands alexa the phone)
niggas are so fuckin dumb.
ehhhhh.
anyways....i called him at like
6:18 i think.
and he was pissed at me. like i expected.
no surprise.
then we curse at each other.
no surprise.
then i cry like a bitch.
ahhhh.
say how much i dont wanna go.
and say bye.
fml at this moment.
then i get down to the bus station.
and my name isnt on the list.
cuz i told them i had a court date.
my dad was pissed. lol
he really wanted me gone.
oh, well.
im still here. haha.
i go home and IM him
and go to sleep.
wake up,call him, then alexa.
then both.
i fuckin love them bitches.
damn im glad im still here.
i ws suppose to go to job corps today.
:(
and i didnt even get to see
chris of alexa before the day i was
scheduled to leave.
so i sneak out in the middle of my
packing and go to her house.
do i notify her first?
no, cuz we're bff's and she felt me coming.
i knock on her window and she knows what to do.
its like 3 and stay until like alomst 5.
we were just talkin and shit.
and she was on the phone with this one nigga.
who had this "cute" friend.
and alexa gives me the phone while the
"cute" friend is on it. lol
sam-"hello?"
boy-"hey, whats your name?"
sam-"lucifer"
boy-"oh, that's different."
(this nigga is obviously an idiot)
sam-"yeah, i know"
boy-"so can i have your number?"
sam-"yeah, tell me when you're ready"
boy-"alright, what is it?"
sam-"666"
......silence
boy-"whats the rest?"
sam-"are you dumb?"
boy-"haha. naw, im just shy."
sam-"oh okay, well you're shy and im taken so this isnt gonna work"
(hands alexa the phone)
niggas are so fuckin dumb.
ehhhhh.
anyways....i called him at like
6:18 i think.
and he was pissed at me. like i expected.
no surprise.
then we curse at each other.
no surprise.
then i cry like a bitch.
ahhhh.
say how much i dont wanna go.
and say bye.
fml at this moment.
then i get down to the bus station.
and my name isnt on the list.
cuz i told them i had a court date.
my dad was pissed. lol
he really wanted me gone.
oh, well.
im still here. haha.
i go home and IM him
and go to sleep.
wake up,call him, then alexa.
then both.
i fuckin love them bitches.
damn im glad im still here.
7/05/2009
for chris
this is my boyfriend.
he's swole, funny, doesnt chew gum,
cant sit still, and a terrible person.
he means sooooo much 2 me. i've been liking
him for 2 yrs and we're just now goin out.
which is kinda weak cuz we startd goin
out on fuckin Independence Day and shit.
but it was worth the wait.
i care more about him than any other
nigga i've ever talked to. he's always
there for me and we can talk about anything
cuz we have so much in common.
he's my best friend too and has been
for a long time.
he was there for me when other niggas werent.
chris brings out the best in me
....and the worst too actually.
i love and miss him so much that
sometimes it just makes me sad.
he gets one my nerves EVERY FUCKING DAY
but hes still my baby.
and he puts up with my bullshit.
ill never leave him cuz he's too important to me.
ily chris.♥
my ex's lmao
this might seem really immature,
but all these guys have done me
wrong one way or another. and just
admitting that i use to talk to
them at all is more embarassment for
me than this is for them trust me.
there are more but why talk shit about
everybody?
titus castle....lol
oversized clothes?? braids?? lmao.
i be fuckin up.
wayne deSalme.
pretty cool white boy. if you
dont mind acne and that wet dog smell.
david ekibolaji
he's african and funny.
thats 2 things that arent so bad,
but come on, look at the picture. ewww
R.I.M.
his name is abbreviated cuz
its to fucking long. he's a woman beater.
and the only one on the list i kissed.
but he's pretty fucking wack.
i cant stress that enough.
Aaryn Hill
this is actually one of his better pics.
hes just not cute. which is okay.
its the zits, non-swoleness, and bad breath
thats the problem.
i actually had more fun going out with david
than any of the other ones. he was the funniest.
doing this made me feel better.
but all these guys have done me
wrong one way or another. and just
admitting that i use to talk to
them at all is more embarassment for
me than this is for them trust me.
there are more but why talk shit about
everybody?
titus castle....lol
oversized clothes?? braids?? lmao.
i be fuckin up.
wayne deSalme.
pretty cool white boy. if you
dont mind acne and that wet dog smell.
david ekibolaji
he's african and funny.
thats 2 things that arent so bad,
but come on, look at the picture. ewww
R.I.M.
his name is abbreviated cuz
its to fucking long. he's a woman beater.
and the only one on the list i kissed.
but he's pretty fucking wack.
i cant stress that enough.
Aaryn Hill
this is actually one of his better pics.
hes just not cute. which is okay.
its the zits, non-swoleness, and bad breath
thats the problem.
i actually had more fun going out with david
than any of the other ones. he was the funniest.
doing this made me feel better.
7/02/2009
survey
im like really bored
so i thought i'd make
a survey of myself.
well, here goes
name : Sam
birthday : 3/12/93
fav food : peanut butter
fav candy : tootsie rolls
(i can eat a thousand tootsie rolls
and that's the best thing to give me.)
fav color : black
i love the dark
i never turn my lights on
hobby : talkin shit w/ alexa lol
i like attention
but not in a bad way, i guess.
fav sport : football
fav drink : tea
biggest pet peeve : liars.
lieing isnt bad, just dont get caught
cuz thatll piss me off.
if you have the balls to lie to me
be smart enough to cover up ur tracks.
talents : lieing, cheating, bitching.
not hte best things in the world but
i dont give a fuck.
im in the middle of IMing chirs
so ill pick this up later
maybe..
so i thought i'd make
a survey of myself.
well, here goes
name : Sam
birthday : 3/12/93
fav food : peanut butter
fav candy : tootsie rolls
(i can eat a thousand tootsie rolls
and that's the best thing to give me.)
fav color : black
i love the dark
i never turn my lights on
hobby : talkin shit w/ alexa lol
i like attention
but not in a bad way, i guess.
fav sport : football
fav drink : tea
biggest pet peeve : liars.
lieing isnt bad, just dont get caught
cuz thatll piss me off.
if you have the balls to lie to me
be smart enough to cover up ur tracks.
talents : lieing, cheating, bitching.
not hte best things in the world but
i dont give a fuck.
im in the middle of IMing chirs
so ill pick this up later
maybe..