it sucks but here

you take your seat and cologne feels the air
but im left with a view of only neck and hair
i want so bad to lean over in your ear
and tell you how i want you close and near
how i want you for my own
but im to scared so im writing this poem
with hopes that by some fucked up fate
you'll notice me and think im great
but i know firsthand fairytales dont come true
i know im just dreaming and will never be with you
i know you want the prettier girl
who struts about without a care in the world
who has a smile that outshines mine anyday
whose presence makes me fade away
into the background so you never see
that your heart will be safer with me
i cant tell you this cuz im scared ill fall flat
fall in love so deep they'll be no turning back
and i dont really know who to care for a man
i dont know how to sacrifice or take a stand
i dont know how to love and that's the problem
im handicap in the art of compassion and im so lost
because ill rather bullshit people and cause chaos
so ill leave you alone and not say how i feel
because, although i care, i can't give you something real
with zipped lips and a tied tongue ill remain mute
and play my part as the girl who only sat behind you

Let me be the first to wish you the worst ;)

Do I look like my dad? lmfao

STFU bitch

*Exhales*
To every girl that complains or some shit
cries over spilled milk,
and bitches all the damn time:
STFU BITCH!
Excuse my colorful language. But it had to be said.
You bitches cry, cry and cry and wonder why
no one wants to be bothered with your whiny ass.
Especially to your boyfriends, he doesn't want to hear
that shit. I swear he doesn't. He may listen the first
couple of times to be nice but no nigga wants some
naggin ass girlfriend. And then when you realize that
he's no longer listening, don't yell at him.
The louder you yell, the less he'll listen.
So the next time you think about running yo mouth
about something that really isn't even fucking important,
bitch, shut the fuck up.Go color or something instead.
:)

How my 2010 starts

• Skip a whole day of class
• Went to juvie
• Got heartbroken
• Graduated
• Got over heartbreak
• Started work
• Spend everyday bored as shit until it's time to go to work.
  

Maya Angelou

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

This is some gangsta shit to tell someone
Translation:
"I'm sexy, your mad, and I have
a jeweled pussy."
Fucking brilliance.

25 things I wanna do before I die

1. write a book if not several
2. become famous, far-fetched but possible
   
3. meet katy perry
4. hurt someone so bad they have to be hospitalized
5. help someone that's hospitalized
6. fight cancer, if it's not the very thing that does kill me
7. have sex on a beach
8. have sex to "Go" by Common
9. say a quote that will go down in history
   
10. meet the guy of my dreams. love him. care for him.
    
11. make sure he loves me. cares for me
12. write a shitload of poems like emily dickinson
13. go to the Super Bowl
14. find the idiot(s) asking me these formspring q's
15. kill them
16. go back to my mom's grave in chicago
17. get drunk
18. kill Ramaddan Ishmael Morroc-Bey
19. learn to swim
20. get another tat, a couple more
21. have my fantasy come true ;)
22. reinvent the words "crazy" and "insubordinate"
    
23. set a building on fire, watch it crumble and burn
24. let my guard down, let someone in.
    
25. have someone to share all these moments with
    

No No

This is who I like to call dummy.
I don't know the girl personally.
She's just some random girl on
facebook that just so happened
to be one my friends list.
Why do I call her dummy? Well,
let's take a look at this picture:

a)it's in a dressing room. that's a no no
b)you can see the tag. that's a no no
c)you can see the security tag. that's a no no
d)pose: stop that. that's a no no
e)YOU CAN SEE THE FUCKING TAG!. that's a no no

Had to repeat the tag one. I'm in awe. And then
had the audacity to put it on the web. smh
If you want to ridicule her personally here is her facebook:
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000214514458#/profile.php?id=100000097673695

"I love that afro hair do"

I have a unique respect for people with natural hair (like myself).
Especially if you are use to getting perms. It takes alot of guts to
just stop or to whack all your hair off. It's not easy. But on the bright
side it's fucking beautiful. Nothing looks better than big hair. I love it.
Keep your perms, relaxers, lye konks and what not.
I'm never getting a perm again. Why should I? I dont fucking need one.
I love my fucking hair just the way it is.

Cross my heart, Hope to die, Stick a needle in my eye

if i should die before i wake
i pray the lord that he shall make
a ghost of me so i can haunt you
until your days of living are through
id fuck up your life and make you hear noises
wake you in your sleep and have you imagine voices
id drive to the very edge of insanity
id make you go crazy just like you did me
crazy to the point of no return
make your insides bleed, your intestines burn
use fire to make you incinerate
throw you in the ocean for shark bait
carve my intials into your back with a razor
so you will remember my name for forever
gauge out your eyes and put it in my salad
scream and yell saying that i've had it
had enough of your shit and fucked up ways
enough of you treating me like shit when i give you praise
and through all this you won't die
because i want to see you cry
i want to see you suffer and weep
i want to see you lose nights of sleep
feel the agonizing pain
of which i am to blame
feel the way i felt, walk in my shoes
experience the scar and bruise
you left on my heart continuously
while i stand before you and laugh shamelessly
if you should die before you wake
pray the lord that he shall take
your body far away from me
cause if not ill damage it. thats a gurantee.